Like, only the stuff that is really worth remembering...or that have significance to you.
Today my entry should have been:
Had a lovely brunch with my family at The Black Bear Diner. Service was to put it kindly, a little poor. No matter. The blueberry pancakes were delicious! Afterwards, I helped my mom and sis find church dresses to liven up their wardrobes with the help of a little old store called The Dress Barn. After that, we went grocery shopping together. I bought yellow squash that I have just recently discovered tastes fantastic boiled and covered in salt and butter! Then tonight, I ran 7 miles. And swam one mile. It felt so good!
Instead, I wrote thus:
"Sat, June 11, 2011. Loneliness. A word I know all too well. *(Yes, I'm SUCH a drama queen sometimes!)* It is so quiet in this room I think I can hear the water sloshing around inside my stomach and my heart beating thru my ears. I'm bummed tonight cuz I was going to go out on a group date with an old friend and he bailed on me in the late afternoon. So, I opted to go to my ward pool party- exceptI didn't want to go alone cuz I still don't really know too many people in my ward so I would have been in danger of looking like the awkward loner girl at the party. I texted all my roommates but every single one was busy. Go figure. I decided to go run my anger off at the gym instead. I hate feeling like this so why do I let myself?!"
...I wrote some other things but you get the picture. Why do I (maybe insert WE) let ourselves only see the negative in my (our) lives? Why can't the glass be half full? I have 2 working legs, eyes, arms, hands, feet. Isn't that enough to just BE HAPPY!!!! arg.
Now it's 1:38 am. I'm kinda not really so much tired. YouTube, here I come. May you have many many viral videos to put me to sleep.
1 comment:
Oh no, I'm so sorry Camille. I almost called you last night because I had a night alone too, but I assumed you would be out. My fault! We could've kept each other company.
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